Goodbye To All My Work

So. I may have just lost everything. Last night, everything was going great. I was several books ahead of schedule, with reviews lined up into September. I was six chapters into writing Daughter of Abraham’s first draft, and my 25,000 e-book library was sorted and cataloged. I woke up this morning to a dead hard drive.

Some of you may realize at this point, that this is the infamous Nom Nom, aka… my current and only file backup since my entire computer died not that long ago and is currently getting repaired.

What’s on Nom Nom? All my music, my entire e-book library… all my years of artwork dating back to 2001, all of my writing/novels, including my list of novel ideas and Daughter of Abraham. My file installs, my game backups… basically, you name it, it’s there. And I can’t access it.

I’m mildly freaking out right now. My husband comes home at the end of the week, just a few days before we leave for Disneyland, and he promises to check it out then (he works on/builds computers for a living) so I’m hoping that he’ll find a way to access it…but if he doesn’t? Goodbye to every single file I own.

Some of it can be replaced. I don’t mind re-ripping my games or music. My e-book library is painful, but a good chunk of it can be re-downloaded off Amazon’s cloud. My artwork, while sad, can mostly be grabbed once more off DeviantART where I have most of it posted anyhow.

But my writing? Family photos? Those can’t be replaced. I don’t have backups of my various novels-in-progress. I don’t have backups of my novel ideas list (which would have gone a long way to making me relieved about the situation if I had it – at least I wouldn’t have lost the core ideas to novels, even if I had to re-write them). All six of the new chapters of Daughter of Abraham were recently stored on the hard drive. I simply can’t replace family photos at all.

Normally, I’d be okay. I usually keep two copies of my files, one on Nom Nom, one on my computer…but since my computer recently died, Nom Nom is all I have. If the hard drive truly is gone, I’m going to seriously cry.